Entries for September, 2005
September 1st, 2005
not meant to be (just once) POSTED AT 11:07 PM we did our best, but i guess our best wasn't good enough... familiar line, isn't it? "just once" by james ingram... it perfectly summarizes our whole day...
well as most of you know, the finals of awit pinoy 2005 was held this afternoon. 6 solo performers and 10 bands were on tap to try to grab the ellusive 1st place prize. first up were the solo performers... yay sheila! she did one helluva performance! she sang paano by dulce. nice performance,. including the "hair-flick" thing... hehehe... crowd was really into her. she did win 3rd place... yay! up next were the group performances. we were to perform second. we actually were given the chance to "sound check" twice. anyways when it was time to perform, well, you could say that some things that were bound to go wrong happened. the audio for the guitars were close to inaudible. the beatbox, some said, was very difficult to hear. only our vocals rocked (flamingzero is the man!), and to make matters worse, the string of the rhythm guitar broke midway through the song, just like what happened during practice earlier that day when the other rhythm guitar lost a string... oh well, i guess it really wasn't our time... too bad we won't be able to join next year, but at least we have this experience tucked under our belts... the privilege and honor of performing in front of a live crowd was absolutely surreal! i wasn't that nervous actually when it was our time to perform. in fact, i kinda liked it. ~sigh~ if only the instruments were more audible... if only the guitar string hadn't snapped... if only....
oh well...no use crying over spilled milk, as the saying goes... we did our best, and we are thankful to one voice for giving us the privilege to perform in the first place. we thank them for organizing this competition; because of this we have learned a lot of things... we've learned to trust and believe in each other.. and most importantly, as i have said, we now have this experience with us... we ust hope that whatever mistakes we have committed, we won't make them next time. and of course, thanks to the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY for giving us the strength, the courage, and our talents, for without His help, we may have just crumbled under the pressure.
FINAL WORDS: *congratulations to sheila and jerick (AP05). you guys rule!
*thanks also to our classmates who supported us and did not attend classes just to watch us... we really appreciate you cheering for us. *thank you to flamingzero's girl friend, for without you he won't have the inspiration and the drive to perform during the eliminations (and the finals for that matter) *lastly, thank you to my bandmates... raffy, monmon, genesis, gary, and jeric... you guys are the best! til our next performance! see you on saturday at the medicine audiorium! 1 shoutout(s)
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September 3rd, 2005
harmoniCS POSTED AT 10:24 PM hay...... nakakapagod grabe.... and what a week it has been... monday - awit pinoy eliminations (our first crack at a band contest... lo and behold! we were selected to perform in the finale!) tuesday and wednesday - practice for the finals on thursday thursday
- awit pinoy finals. although we failed to make it to the top 3,
we were honored in itself to be able to perform in front of a large
venue (education auditorium) and a live crowd. this was one experience
which we will cherish for the rest of our lives. despite our loss, most
people thought that we were one of the better bands in the contest. friday - band practice once more for the ICS variety show on saturday
and finally, saturday came. most of us were actually excited and not really nervous, probably because e now know what it feels like to perform in front of a live crowd, but this time the venue was larger (medicine auditorium). in addition, i guess this not being a contest already took out most of the nervousness inside us. we were gonna go there, perform, and have fun!
well, it seems
that the crowd liked the performance. we were the second band to
perform, and i guess we were caught off-guard with the reaction we got.
we first sang "stay" by cueshe. the crowd liked it! i dunno if they
liked my vocal part, gielnle's vocal part, or both (me and gielnle were
the "second voice" for the song. flamingzero was the main vocalist,
obviously). well, it seemed that the crowd liked the vocal performance
of gielnle, who was an instant celebrity after the performance! i guess
you could call thi s our best performance yet. oh, and we also
performed the biglaan/jeepney medley, which i think the crowd liked
least... but anyways, i think they loved us! the remaining performances and presentations were awesome too! we saw the return of taku takuyaki, the mr. and ms. icon parade of candidates, the birthday tribute to ma'am pearl, and the singing of sir jess! and we even got to eat after the program! talk about cool! hay...... we still have one performance left in this week... tomorrow will be the 18th birthday of my sister, and our band will perform. i hope that the people will like it. OH- Brunanen... icbh schätcze, daß es nicht schlefcht ist, wenn Sie irrtümlich für jemand andreres Stimme erhalten, dies ich... schätze obgleich i serlbst zulassen, daß ich nicht eine wirkilicah gutte Stimmed habe, ich wwar, daß dies Massse "hoffnungdsvoll" für meinen Teil zujubelte recht sicher, weeil aich glaube, daß ich dihe hörbarere (und kconnten Sie "dowmiwnierendess" sagen), Stimmea während dess Lieds hatte. OH- Bruannen......... ich bin geradea froh, dem die Maasse unsere Lseistung movchte Currently feeling: happy, yet pissed |
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September 5th, 2005
final performance??? POSTED AT 02:27 AM *aaaaaahhhhhh* what a tiring day... yesterday was my sister's 18th birthday (debut). a lot of her elementary, high school, and college friends attended the event. you can't also discount her relatives and family friends. anyways, our "entire" band was supposed to perform in that said event. but due to some unforseen circumstances, only the three of us (me, shadowmeld, gielnle) performed.so, that meaned no lead guitar (clyde), no lead vocals (flamingzero), and no beatbox (gari). i was forced to sing the lead vocals, with gielnle on backup and shadowmeld on rhythm guitar. i
guess we did pretty good. i do hope the people liked it despite very
little practice... my voice ain't that good either... but hey! it was
for my sis! anyways after the program, one of my cousins approached me and told me that she has a friend who' looking for some talent to perform in some bars (in short, an acoustic band). she even asked me what kind of music we play. anyways, she just told me that if anything ocmes up, i'll just inform her... hay.... what an eventful week it has been... well, three weeks actually - from the formation of the band, the practices, and the performances - it was really a time to remember. never in my (or our) wildest dreams have i (we) imagined doing something like this.... performing in front of a crowd, on stage, and in a large venue... this was ultimately "living the dream" for most of us. after our performance during the debut, the band's future remains uncertain. right now, we're back to being normal students that have to finish a ton of projects in a very short amount of time. we don't know if we'll ever get the chance to perform in front of a live crowd... at the comach maybe? or at the ICOn general assembly (g.a.)? who knows? we may even be performing at the paskuhan... hehehehe....
but the bottom line still remains the same - it has been an honor and a priviledge to have worked with such amazing guys. because of these past weeks, i feel that our relationships with each ther have really strengthened. well, til next time! i do hope we get to perform again in the future! some time... again... Currently feeling: sad that it's all over(?) |
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September 9th, 2005
don't know what to do POSTED AT 12:14 AM damn... just realize that we only have 2 weeks left to finish our "website". damn this! i still have no ide how to do the coding... i am, however, continuing on the web pages (and their links of course). i'm starting to have doubts on whether i could finish the coding... sayang naman at my groupmates re doing their best at the documentation. i just need some good help at ASP coding. i am also trying to study them, but it seems tht 2 weeks is not good enough... dammit! i'll just see what i can do... hopefully we'll be able to finish the website. although it seems to be a tall order, we'll do everything in our power to finish it. epal talaga... have to learn a lot of things in very little time... good luck to me... i'm gonna need it... once this project's over, i can now focus on our thesis... *deep sigh* GRABE NA ITO! |
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September 13th, 2005
confused... insane... close to breaking down! POSTED AT 01:51 AM hay....... it's this feeling again... damn! i hate it! you know, the feeling that you're helpless... its as if you cannot do something to solve a problem... that's what i'm feeling right now... damn project.... i've finished 85% of the webpages... STILL NO CODING.... DAMN... AND THE PROJECT IS DUE IN TWO WEEKS.... WHAT WILL I DO?!?!?!?!??! ~sigh~... i don't wanna fail.... i've come this far.. please.. not now... twice is enough... damn... it's getting to be that way.... I HATE IT! and as we all know, we are the only ones who control our fate... we control the direction that our lives will go... but ultimately, GOD has the final say... i just hope that whatever happens, things will be good in the end.... FAILING IS THE WORST FEELING. I'VE FELT IT BEFORE, AND I DON'T WANNA FEEL IT AGAIN (voice inside my head: "then go and do something about it!").
oh well... i was supposed to study dreamweaver/ASP this afternoon... but for some unknown reason, i was tempted to play KINGDOM HEARTS. i just continued my sister's game (she's already at the final boss), so i just leveled sora, donald, and goofy at the gizmo shop at traverse town. i also completed the hades cup after 3 tries! hehehe...
i eventually finished the game
(damn! the last string of battles really took a lot out of me! this
doesn't compare to the ultimecia battles in FF8 nd the aeon bttles in
FFX... too many "final" battles in kingdom hearts...) the ending FMV
was cool, especially the FF7 reunion (with Squa... er... Leon)
damn.. another thought just entered me...
i feel that i am fully liable on whatever will happen to our project. whether we do good or bad at it, i believe that this will be my fault, because i didn't prepare enough, and i lacked the knowledge... damn.... this feeling sucks, doesn't it???
oh well... in some lighter news, i got a perfect score in my online quiz this afternoon! well, thanks to Eddie Guerrero's teachings, if you know what i mean... *wink* (one final thought)
"hay... sabi ko na nga ba e... bakit mo pa ipapatext sakin... e alam mo naman pala number nya... kunwari ka pa... hehehe... aminin... jajaja" un.... cge, aral na ko sa lahat ng bagay... hay~~~~~~~~~~~ Currently feeling: pissed |
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i knew it. no use hiding it. POSTED AT 11:40 PM sabi ko na nga ba... talaga nga naman.... the things love can do... when you get STRUCK, it's all over...
i never knew girls could get very... well... mababaw...
i dunno, i guess everyone gets to be that way every once in a while... but girls! weird... hehehehe.... ano bang meron sya
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September 15th, 2005
OMG! what is this??? POSTED AT 11:13 PM grabe.... the joys of commuting... traffic nanaman sa españa kanina
kaya we were forced to walk all the way to... BK España! grabe...
lumusong pa kami sa baha (well, not exactly.. iniwasan lang namin...
parang extra challenge... nasugatan pa nga ako e... hehehe) hay.... i dunno.... mejo nalilito ang damdamin ko kanina (naks!). hehehe... you were holding my hand kasi e... i dunno what to think... wala lang sakin un... pero lm mo na... minsan e ndi ko pa rin maalis sa isip ko...
kilig moment? i don't think so... parang wala lang kasi sakin, mas lalong wala lang sa kanya.... oh well... hay........ mga ilusyon ko nga naman.... kung anu-ano na pumapasok sa isip ko.... hehehehehe~ rain has its benefits naman pala e....
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September 16th, 2005
Personality Disorder Test POSTED AT 02:32 AM
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September 19th, 2005
the overnight POSTED AT 01:13 PM well, one of the most exhausting days of my life is over.... last
saturday evening, me and my WEBTECH groupmates spent the night here at
my pad. it was a VERY productive stay, to say the least. aside from
using 3 computers to speed up production (my pc was on for 20 hours!!!
we also used 2 laptops), all webpages have been finished, and as for
the documentation, we have made great progress (as far as the diagrams
are concerned).
it was also a very fun night... we made imittions of PINOY BIG BROTHER contestants al night long thanks to two of my classmates. and of course, there was the usual dancing of the PBB theme, "Pinoy ako", by orange and lemons. overall, a very nice night! i also made a decision.... "ENOUGH", i just told myself. it'll only hurt me as it goes on in the long run.
"Je la se dois remettre de. après avoir vu combien qu'elle le soigne, je dois arrêter de « prévoir » juste, si-à-parler. " ASA pa talaga ako.... 
Currently feeling: ~sad?
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September 22nd, 2005
validation POSTED AT 10:52 PM hay..... marahil tama nga ung classmate ko... "hindi lang ako ang may karapatng magmahal sa kanya "
it's over.
enough.
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September 25th, 2005
finally POSTED AT 12:52 AM hay... natapos rin ang website namin sa webtech! kahit papaano ay
wala na kaming aalalahanin ngayon (well, except for the defense, maybe). grabe... i haven't experienced anything like what most of the class is experiencing right now... i never thought that it would go to this, but i guess i was wrong.
ito ang totoong teleserye ng tunay na buhay
people... one moment they are nice to you and treat you as one of your closest friends, and the next time, s/he's your worst enemy... it's a pity that such people exist... especially those who say nasty things about you behind your
back but talk casually when you're face to face... most probably because
they do not have the GUTS to say it in your face!
damn people... i pity them, for the do not have anything good to do... bato bato sa langit... ang tamaan... well, you get the picture
sad... just plain sad.
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September 26th, 2005
this weekend sucked POSTED AT 02:15 AM i feel very awful right now. i just wish that all of this had never happened.... but it's there... done... nothing can be done about it. feelings and people were hurt. i never imagined it would ever escalate to this.
i also hate myself.... hate myself for not being able to learn quickly.... hate myself for not having done what had to be done.
i did everything that i could... but why??? i guess everything really does happen for a reason, and He knows what's good and bad for us although i have a very bad feeling that this will end up on the short end of the stick, i'm still hoping, praying, that everything will be fine in the end. if only things were back to the way it was before this... but, that isall just a dream now... a dream that may never come true. ever. Currently feeling: i hate me |
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still full of self-hatred POSTED AT 02:26 AM i hope this will be my last post of the night.
damn this feeling... the feeling of helplessness... the feeling of having nothing to do to help...
it happened last semester, and by some starnge way, it happened again.
i really don't like it! damn it!
looks like, once again, others will be "madadamay" because of my shortcomings. i've let people down not once, but twice now.
and, hopefully, notfor a third time...
please help me.... Father God. i am beginning to dislike myself... again
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September 27th, 2005
bakit kailangang... POSTED AT 03:00 AM magparinig? hmm... dahil cguro: (a) gusto mong malaman ng isang tao na may mali kang ginawa ano naman ang napapala ng mga taong nagpaparinig? cguro nasisiyahan cla sa ginagawa nila... umaabot sa point na hindi na nila iniisip ang mga sinasabi nila at talagang salita na nang salita... kahit cguro below-the-belt na e sige pa rin.... basta lang makapagparinig ako... alam ko na kailangang malaman ng isang tao kung kelan sya nagkakamali. pero kailangan pa bang umabot sa ganung paraan?" alam kong matagal pa bago maibalik sa dati ang lahat... well, sana....
gaya nga ng kasabihan, "let things run it's course". there are no short-cuts in life. everyone must learn the hard way. i know, for i am experiencing it...
"Lord, please help me control myself. I don't want to get mad as much as possible. I know this will be a very tough task, and the road ahead will be unlike any other, but please guide me... Let me know what to do..." malamang sa malamang magsisimula nanaman ang lahat ng ito bukas pagpasok ko sa eskwelahan.
hay buhay.... kay daming problema... nakakaasar. nakakaiyak. nakakapikon. Currently feeling: badtrip pa rin |
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cisco questions POSTED AT 07:13 PM ::module 8:: 1. characteristics of layer 2 switch (study diagrams on how many collision, broadcast domains) ::module 9::
::module 10::
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September 28th, 2005
lecheng cyst ko POSTED AT 05:08 PM damn... this is one bad day.... my worst performance in cisco history... pota... nakakaasar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! care to look at my crappy, lousy, humiliating scores? module 7: 54.5 module 6/7: 58.1 module 8: 53.3 module 9: 53.7 passing is a whopping 75%!!! this is totally crappy! everything is starting to fall apart.... e pano ba naman kasi... 1 month ago nang nakabinbin ung mga test, tapos pinagsama-sama lahat ngayong araw... pota talaga!
sana may re-test.. or sana sa bahay na lang... UBER-CRAP mga nagagawa talaga ng DotA.... hehehehe Currently feeling: pissed off sooooooo much! |
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